wow.
"is it time? ...i think so"
it has been far too long since i wrote in here... i've had lots of things to talk about and it gets so overwhelming that i just avoid it. I even went to go write in my private journal on my computer, but then realized i forgot the damn password and gave up.. i should look into someone figuring out how i can get back into it now...
Anyway.. sooo not TOO much as happened since the last time i wrote.
lets see....
Went to granada.. now my favorite city in Spain. its SO amazing. and has such an Indian.. gypsy.. authentic spanish feel.. but then has the metropolitan spanish feel to it too.. ugh its just so amazing i want to be there forever
hmm what else.. oh! got a new piercing.. i love it. my "conch".. it sounds strange.. but i liked it because not alot of people have it.. and i think its super cute.
We leave for Madrid tomorrow morning until Sunday.. i've heard ALL good things about this city so lets hope i love this one as much as Granada.
I'm not quite feeling ready to come home.. BUT i have to admit as the time gets closer and closer i become more and more ready. But to be honest.. if this trip were longer.. significantly longer. i would be perfectly fine with it. Which kind of surprises me, i half expected to be SO anxious to go home and be SO homesick.. but i haven't felt that way once. Even when i first got here i didnt feel out of place.. that may seem strange, since clearly i was, being the same height or taller than half the people here.. wearing flip flops and running around with a backpack and "blond" hair. haha..Though i couldn't speak the language, i never once felt unwelcomed or had the urge to leave to a place more comfortable. So now, having had 4 and half months to settle and learn some conversational spanish.. im not only more comfortable here.. it almost feels like home. I no longer practice every spanish sentence in my head before it flies out of my mouth, i dont creep around my apartment for fear my host mother might talk to me and i might have to actually respond, we're now "regulars" at some of the restaurants and bars in town. People recognize us and acknowledge us as if we belong.. and it really feels like we do.
its the best feeling, and most defiantly not one i had expected to feel.
I love being part of a family here too. My favorite thing at home is having the family over for meals.. and my mother and i do it every sat.. we go over her brothers house where every is and stand around in the kitchen and talk and drink vodka and fanta.. while my little 4 year old cousins runs around me.. and i step in front of him and he laughs and laughs like its teh funniest game ever...though we can't talk to each otehr because he talks baby spanish and i SURELY cannot understand that.. we play silently, he gives me his toy cars to play with him, and we sit in silence. i think he knows i can't speak well.. so he usually doens't try. but he likes to cuddle with me on teh couch even so. I used to be frighened by him and his evil screams and stares he would make when got in trouble.. but im beginning to like him. My mother and brother and i have been talking alot more.. each time i write i say this.. but its true..i even used past tense today with messing up.. woah.. this is a big step. i knwo your thinking wow.. by now she shoudl at least know THAT... yes i should.. haha.. but its just a big scary thing to use in speaking.. beleive me.. i mess it up alot when i try..
I was getting annoyed with people on my trip.. but they're growing on me again.. im really going to miss alot of them when we go home.. not seeing them everyday in class.. or just hanging out on the weekends.. none of them will be around.. and even if they do annoy me.. its going to be weird to be alone and not have the SAME 33 people around allll the time.
we'll see...
"vamos a ver"
more updating after Madrid..
p.s I'm currently reading 'the red tent".. AMAZING book so far.. I highly recomend it.
I LOVED this part of the book.. so im writing it here for you to enjoy:
(quick; to give you background... this is Dinah talking, Jacob's (from the bible) only daughter who has a tiny little baby paragraph in the bible about her and thats it.. anyway this is a fictional book of course.. but this little part is when hes taking his entire family to back to egypt. Dinah has never seen a big body of water before.. so they came to this river in their travels)... --"I had no time to be afraid. The pack animals were at my back, forcing me ahead, so I entered the river and felt the water rise to my ankles and calves. The current felt like a caress on my knees and thighs. In an instant, my belly and chest were covered, and I giggled. The water held no threat, only an embrace I had no wish to break. I moved my arms through the water, feeling them float on the surface, watching the waves and wake that followed my gesture. Here was magic, I thought. Here was something holy."--
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